Yesterday I turned 20, I am writing this from my new laptop because my parents are awesome.

I thought I would get that out of the way.

So anyways I haven't been doing to much this week. My grampa passed away last sunday so I spent most of the week in New York visting my family and such. It was good to get back and hang out with my family for the week, I really enjoyed it though I wish it was on better circumstances.

This meant that I wasn't able to get much work done which sets me back in almost all of my endeavors. That sucks but I was glad to get the break. This is the first vacation this summer where I didn't even think about work. Its been beautiful, and I really needed it, especially with a trip to South Africa only 2 weeks away, and school starting soon, I need the break.

Looking back from it I try to figure out what I've gotten from this summer, and I know what the number one thing is. I know my limit. I spent this summer pushing my limits and taking on way too many things, and in doing that learned that when you try to do to much at once and make too many commitments that you end up hurting all of them. I am not going to do anything so stupid as to attempt the schedule I set for myself this summer again.

The other thing that I have learned is that I have a lot to learn about programing. I started this summer with a lot of people telling me that I was a good programer. Its not true at all, and I am not being self deprecating, I just know now that I don't really know a lot. Programming isn't just about translating an idea into action and about implementing things. Its also about doing it efficiently, something that I am not good at yet and sometimes don't have the faintest idea about.

And I keep asking the wrong people for help and encouragement. From now on I am going to decide when my work is awesome on my own. Im a pretty critical judge of my own work but I want to stop buying in to compliments on my work, unless I know that what I did was awesome because up to this point I haven't made anything exceedingly difficult and I haven't accomplished anything major. So why should think highly of myself for nothing. Exactly.

On a lighter note.
I GOT A MACBOOK I GOT A MACBOOK I GOT A MACBOOK!

peace