Fuller Theological Seminary: Benjie

April 6, 2008

Spring Quarter Already???

Hi folks! My sincerest apologies for being mia. I can't believe that it's already Spring Quarter!!!

Things have been supremely busy. We are now 26 weeks into our pregnancy and time is passing by faster by the week. I've now "officially" started my field education internship at Newsong Church in Irvine. So far, it has been a wondrous time of fellowship with students and learning from my supervising pastors. I'm enrolled in 3 absolutely EXCITING classes. And trust me, I'm not exactly the geekiest guy on the planet...Systematic Theology 3 will be my last ST class (hurray!). Next, I'm lucky enough to be taking President Mouw's Philosophy course, Perspectives of Christ and Culture. Last, I'm taking my Old Testament Exegesis course with Professor Roger Nam on Hosea & Amos. Although I originally enrolled in this class just to get rid of my exegesis requirement, I've been incredibly enriched and excited so far! I would highly recommend any student to take this course by Prof. Nam, but I believe he'll be starting a new job out of state after this quarter (congrats to him and boo for us!). It has been a long while since I've been this excited for my classes at Fuller. Although the work promises to be dense, challenging, and plentiful, I think that the prospect of learning and being challenged in my faith and theology makes it well worth it all.

That's all for now. Check back soon!

godspeed

February 12, 2008

Strength in Community

When I started Fuller last fall quarter, one of the first things I did was leave the small Korean church that I'd been serving at my entire life. Not only did I feel that it was time for me to move on in my ministry education, I was also burned out and just flat-out tired of serving at church. I had literally never missed a Sunday worship service and I frankly wanted a break from church community and all its accompanying politics and responsibilities. So I left and I never really looked back until more recently.

Although my time away from church commitment was needed and refreshing, I was also lacking in spiritual community and mentorship. NOT having these things for an extended period of time has helped me more fully realize how instrumental they are for my spiritual well-being and growth.

Although I've started a pastoral internship at Newsong church in Irvine and have slowly started building relationships and community there, my main source of community and spiritual strength have come from 2 other sources:

a) my small cluster of friends and community that has remained strong even outside of the church context. these individuals have served as a catalyst for me to seek growth and to continually strive for integrity and character....2 words which are easily tossed around but rarely manifested in real life. God bless these individuals.

b) my small group at Fuller. Although we've only met sporadically in the past year, I was able to more recently make myself vulnerable to these brothers by sharing with them some of my life struggles and issues. What a blessing to have a group of accepting/supportive/affirming brothers at Fuller!

To have a healthy spiritual community is a blessing.

godspeed

January 24, 2008

Mighty to Save

So I've been taking Intensive Hebrew this quarter. They say that Hebrew can be either easier or harder than Greek, depending on who you are. Well, I can confidently say that after 3 weeks, I am the type of person that finds Hebrew amazingly DIFFICULT!!!! I'm not sure how anyone can find squiggly lines and dots (compared to the squiggly lines and dots of the American language haha...) deciphered into sounds and gutterals, to be an EASY learning experience.

I've also started my internship (unofficially) with the Edge (Newsong Irvine's college ministry). I had the opportunity to be one of the counselors at their winter retreat this past weekend and was both encouraged and invigorated! What an amazing group of students and staff! The Edge is comprised of about 200 students that primarily attend UC Irvine. Here are some observations I had from the retreat, as well as things I learned during the retreat:

a) Never place the limitation of time while worshipping God. The retreat was LONG (4 days) and the schedule often fluctuated and worship rarely started exactly on time. Because of this, I actually stopped worrying about start and end times and I decided to simply worship without the limitation of how long or short something was supposed to be. The result? A freedom in worship that I most oftentimes miss out on because of how worried I am about things that need to be accomplished...

b) prayer is both powerful and necessary in the Christian walk/life.

c) the students and pastor's at Newsong Edge are amazing! I was so invigorated and encouraged by their passionate love for God and the humble manifestations of their love in serving the ministry. I can't wait to immerse myself in this ministry and learn the numerous things that I'm sure God has for me to experience.

d) Humble Worship. The worship team was incredibly talented. But the thing that really impacted me was their humility in leading worship. Simply put, the worship leaders truly enjoy and are passionate for worshipping God. It's not something you can put into words or actions. It is just something you can see resonating from their hearts/souls. BEAUTIFUL!


godspeed

January 7, 2008

Happy New Year and New Quarter

Winter break has come and gone. What better way to christen in the new year and new quarter than with an 8 am Hebrew Intensive??? It gets even more exciting to know that I have a 50 mile commute to the Pasadena campus. Nothing more thrilling than waking up at 530 am to freezing cold weather and sitting in an hour and a half of traffic to get to campus. Jk.....I think....

Sarcasm aside, I really am excited for this new year and quarter. A church internship that I've lined up and am extremely excited for awaits, and even moreso, I am looking forward to another quarter of building relationships with some of my classmates, who are quickly becoming dear friends. I think that I'm starting to realize that my time here at Fuller is going quite FAST, and although the education I'm receiving is fantastic and irreplaceable, perhaps there is nothing more precious than true, solid friendships. Hopefully the rest of this year can go a long ways towards cultivating that purpose.


Anyways, in other minor news, my wife is now 12 weeks pregnant!

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I'll be sure to have more pictures and updates in the coming weeks!

godspeed

November 15, 2007

Doctrine

Obviously, for believers doctrine is an important methodology that can guide us to a stronger and more accurate understanding of God. Surely, doctrine is an important guide that can keep us from heretical truths that are contrary to how God is presented within Scripture. However, it seems to me that differences in doctrine result in more division and hate, rather than the love that is commanded of us (the Church). Moreover, is it just me when it seems like those that place an overwhelming emphasis on doctrine, are shoving God inside a box? Lately, I've been marveling at the beauty and mystery of God, and how absolutely big and great He is. Surely, God is bigger than the restrictions that our doctrine tends to place Him in.

So lately, whenever I need to study on campus, I've been going to the Catalyst. I love the Catalyst primarily because we are allowed to have food and drinks there (as opposed to the library). However, the more I come to the Catalyst, the more I see people napping. I'm not hating! The Catalyst is a great place to nap! But it seems that the name Catalyst, is not the most appropriate name for a place of rest. How about The Deterrent? or The Preventor? The Detriment??

My apologies for the corniness. I'm trying to study here at the Catalyst and I'm getting REALLY sleepy!

godspeed

October 26, 2007

Fires

So it turns out that I happen to live only about 3 miles from the origins of the Santiago fire. My sister (who lives in Tustin Ranch and is directly adjacent to Irvine) called my family on Sunday evening to see if we were ok. Because I had been watching the fire spread quickly south (towards her area), I asked her if SHE was doing ok. It turns out she was watching the news from a friends house and had no idea that the fire was anywhere near her direction. To make a long story short, my sister ended up being evacuated later that evening, but her neighborhood was thankfully unharmed (although she actually saw the fire twist towards her home for about 5 minutes before the fierce winds pushed them away).

Although my family wasn't forced to evacuate, my ever cautious wife spent Sunday evening preparing to leave just in case...preparing a box for the cats, packing some essentials, etc. I couldn't keep my eyes off the television as I watched the fires blaze so close to where we were. To be honest, I wasn't ever truly worried, perhaps due to the surreal nature of it all (as opposed to my incredible life experience and maturity! [dripping sarcasm intended]) more then anything else.

At one point during the evening, my wife asked me what I'd pack if we needed to evacuate. Without answering, I thought of packing my brand new Playstation 3 into my backback along with my laptop. My instinctual mental response caused me to realize how materialistic I can be and it also made me stop and think about what I truly consider valuable...not so much in a materialistic/physical sense, but I suppose in more of an existential manner. I'm not trying to regurgitate some overused Christianese here, but really...where is it that I truly derive my value?

Ultimately, I honestly can't fathom what it would be like to lose my physical home, not to mention my wife and family. As important as these things are, I know (or at least I THINK I know..or maybe I have momentary glimpses of when I actually DO know) that the only proper place where I ought to derive my value from is my Creator. I'm appalled by how self serving I can be and how many things in my life I've turned into idols. In all circumstances, may God be the focal point and ultimate desire. In all circumstances, blessed be the name of the Lord. Is my soul legitimately marinating with such an utterly powerful and profound Truth?

The fires are no longer a threat to where we live, although we've seen probably 100 fire trucks pass through our area, and a shelter for some evacuees is merely 2 miles from us. However, the fires rage on. Knowing that the origin of these brutal flames were so close to my home, my heart goes out to those that have lost theirs. I cannot imagine how difficult it must be. God be with all the victims.

godspeed

October 11, 2007

Why Fuller?

Having grown up in Southern California my whole life, the only two theological seminaries that I knew about were Talbot and Fuller. My father actually graduated from Talbot in the early 80's and not so coincidentally, most of my spiritual/pastoral influences just so happened to be Talbot graduates. Furthermore, everyone around me characterized Talbot as the "conservative" school and Fuller as the "liberal" school. Although I had no idea what those terms actually meant, let me assure you that in my worldview, conservative meant "the good guys," and liberal meant "the bad guys."

After receiving my calling into ministry during the early part of my undergraduate years, I soon began to contemplate where I ought to go for my seminary education. Whereas in my earlier years where literally all of my spiritual mentors were Talbot grads, I began to meet some incredible spiritual figureheads that had attended Fuller (imagine that!!). It was during these years where I truly began to research and consider which seminary would be the best for me. I made the requisite calls and made campus/classroom visits to both schools. More importantly, I began to interview and challenge every single person I met that had either attended, or was currently attending, either school.

Through this process, I began to gain a stronger understanding of each seminary. I came to realize that both seminaries had a lot to offer. Here is a brief synopsis/evaluation of my impression for both schools prior to making my choice:

a) Talbot has a very practical program for seminarians ie future pastors. Their program is designed specifically to be as applicable as possible for pastors in the ministry field. Additionally, the Talbot faculty as a whole is very committed to being involved in the lives of their students. It is more than likely that each student at Talbot would leave with at least one mentor figure from the Talbot faculty.

b) Fuller is a very diverse program and is very academic in nature. The seminary education is excellent and challenging. A close mentor that had graduated from Fuller offered this explanation, "If you want to learn WHAT to think, go to Talbot. If you want to learn HOW to think, go to Fuller."

Ultimately, I chose Fuller because I realized I had most likely learned almost all there is to know from Talbot because of the many influences I had growing up. I chose Fuller because I wanted to be spiritually stretched and challenged beyond my encapsulating comfort zones. Although I still feel that I would have had an excellent experience at Talbot, I believe I made the right choice in coming to Fuller. During this past year, I have been amazed by our unity and commitment to worshipping one God, even in the midst of such a denominationally diverse student body. The faculty at Fuller has been amazing. I am so appreciative to see so many of our renowned professors making a commitment to spend time with students outside of the classroom. Theologically/spiritually, I have been beyond challenged. To put it simply, we truly worship an amazing and gigantic God. God is bigger than any of our minds can fathom. Indeed, He transcends denominational lines and He is even bigger then the theology that we often try to box him in with. As a whole, Fuller recognizes this and is committed to pursuing and worshipping a God this great.

godspeed

October 2, 2007

A Brief Introduction

well, i guess i'll start this blog off with an introduction...which may include a mix of necessary and unnecessary information. i'm sure i'll spend a lot of time on my spirituality and various other "deeper" issues in subsequent entries, so i'll try and keep this journal more lighthearted and 'introductory'. so here goes!

i'm now beginning my 2nd year at Fuller in the MDIV program. unlike many of my classmates, i actually grew up in southern california. i was born and raised in the city of orange, which is in the heart of orange county. i've been married now for almost four and a half years to my beautiful wife Rebecca and i'm about to turn 30 in less than 2 weeks (this is the first time in my life that i'm NOT looking forward to my birthday!).

personality and interests
i'm a laid back guy who loves to laugh with friends. i have somewhat of a memorable laugh (or so i've been told my whole life...) and i have a penchant for embarassing myself ie tripping, spilling, and talking WAY TOO LOUD. i'm a hardcore Angels fan (season ticket holder) but my love for the game of baseball itself transcends my team loyalties.

i guess that'll do for this entry....

and for new students, that is my first bit of advice. DON'T USE CONTRACTIONS when writing your essays. having been out of the world of academia for 5 years before starting Fuller, i had forgotten that contractions are a no-go when writing formal papers. so there ya go!

godspeed