Finals seemed scary to me last year. This year, I was more stressed after finals because I wasn't so sure I did my best. I've always been one to study and try to stay ahead of the game, but this year, especially this semester, I've had other things on my mind. In the last 30 days, I feel like I have crossed some major thresholds in my life.
1. I'm half-way through college. I am really moving out of entry-level courses and will be learning more in-depth subjects. Not only that, but I will now be working with a client every semester and actually treating him/her instead of just assessing. This is a cool thing :).
2. Like I mentioned earlier, my roommate and I are moving out of student housing, into another apartment. This past week, I've set up things like electricity and internet in my own name. I didn't realize it before, but it's a pretty big deal to actually have real bills with my personal name on them. Weird.
3. I have a new understanding and appreciation for having a job. I just found out I will be working in the same place that I did last year...in Elkhart. Like my dad said, I'm luckier than about 18% of the adults in the county. I can't begin to express how humbled and ecstatic I am. I thought I was lucky last year because the job situation worked out so well, but I didn't realize how horrible it is to not know for sure how I would afford rent and food without taking out more student loans.
4. My eyes. I suppose this is more of a change than a threshold. I may go into more depth later, but my eyes have taken a turn for the worst this year. A simple explanation is that my corneas are weak so when I blink, part of the cornea gets ripped off (occasionally). It's pretty painful. Because of this, I have been unable to wear contacts for about 5 months (they don't cause the pain, they just make it worse). The doctor has tried a few things which have worked for a little, but the pain is back again. I have an appointment on Friday to see what comes next. A few appointments ago, he said he may need to put plugs in my tear ducts to keep the moisture from draining. We'll see.
Despite the eye issue, this year has been wonderful! I've been pretty busy and worked pretty hard but I feel like it's really paid off. It's an exciting feeling to know that I am taking more responsibility for my life and not relying so much on my parents. I'm growing up!