With less than two weeks left till finals, the pressure is on. Honestly, this is when I am probably the worst person to talk to about law school, or to ask about my experience, because I am tired and cranky! Every time I give a tour I tell students "Anyone who tells you law school isn’t hard is lying." They just are. It’s a hard experience, with a lot of challenging coursework, a sheer overwhelming bulk of tasks and materials, and a pretty intense work ethic surrounding you. It's at these times when finals are breathing down my neck and I'm berating myself for all those nights spent watching Law and Order instead of studying the law that I start to wonder if I'm really cut out to be a lawyer. Who could possibly work so hard for the rest of their career?

Luckily, I have friends. Specifically, friends who remind me that I don’t always feel this way. Although it seems like long ago to my mind, my friends tell me that when I was on co-op I didn’t feel this way. I didn’t feel too stupid for the law, or in over my head. I felt (or so I hear) excited about the challenges, enlivened by the intellectual stimulation, and like maybe, just maybe, it was something I could actually be good at some day.

So I'll push through these next two weeks and make it through finals. At the end of it all, I probably won’t feel filled with a love for the law, or a sense of my place in it. However, hopefully my co-op will bring back those feelings. It’s important to feel like you may, someday, be good at what you have spent so much time and energy working at. I hope co-op gives me the chance to feel that again.