"The worst is all the lovely weather." - LCD Soundsystem

I am starting to feel like I really am dragging my feet. Like time is going and going on and sure, the quarter might be over soon (in 5 weeks…) but I feel like I am constantly falling behind. It’s so nice all the time and I just want to go outside and play and enjoy the springtime, but I have stuff to do all the time ugh it’s overwhelming.

Coming home this weekend for a friend’s wedding doesn’t help my feelings of BEING CRUSHED BY SCHOOL. The quarter system seems fine and dandy when everyone has to rush off to school mid August and I get to chiiiilllll in the sun for another month, but here’s where they make up for it. Some of my friends are already done for the summer. I can’t even comprehend what that must feel like.

On the other hand, when summer finally does come, it will be long and strong and I will prance around in the sun like nobody’s business and jam all day long and get bronzed and beautiful etc. I just hope I can keep my head focused and keep reading and writing and learning and man I just want to get A’s and make everyone proud. It’s not even that I wanna get out of Columbus. Sure, not living in a dorm anymore will be sweet, but I’ll miss my friends and the general excitement that is the first year of college.

I’m just worn out I think. Coming home for less than two days is actually more stressful than one would think. But I’ll be back soon enough. Oh I don’t know where I’m going I want to stop learning at the university’s pace right now, that’s all. I wish my little brother wasn’t better at basic chemistry than I am. I wish French wasn’t starting to morph into things that make less sense. And I wish I had an A in anthropology. I suppose I also wish I tried harder in all of the above. Getting frustrated with school is my own fault if I’m only pretending that I’m doing everything I can.

So I guess I’m gonna get back to school on Sunday night and get back in the groove and pick up those textbooks and write some French composition and learn by example by my roommate who makes studying look…fun.

Wish me luck going out with a bang! There’s still over a month of school, but I know in my heart of hearts that if these coming weeks go half as fast as the last 6, I’ll be out of school before I know it. Then I’ll be sitting here on the floor of my room at home again with this computer on my lap lamenting that I’m not still in Columbus doin’ the college thang.

It's really not so bad.

GO BE PRODUCTIVE, SELF!