I've been home almost two weeks, and I guess I'm used to it. I'm getting the hang ouf things around the office at my internship. Today was the first day I drove there without needing directions. Sure, I've already given up on wearing my nice work shoes in favor of my Adidas, but I can scan papers and stuff envelopes like no other.

Being home isn't nearly as bad as I thought it'd be. I miss some people more than I thought I would, and others whom I thought I'd miss I haven't given more than a bumper sticker or two on Facebook. I've rekindled friendships with some high school friends and have really been enjoying myself. I'm working, so at least I don't feel totally lazy; and I'm still running regularly. School, though, is so far gone from my mind.

I got my worst grades spring quarter. But it was worth it. I don't regret hanging out with friends for one last time while I should have been studying for my finals. I don't regret it one bit. I wish I had been blogging more regularly though. Although I don't know how I can possibly relate my summertime activities to anything collegiate and although I've reverted almost completely back to my high school-kid ways, I'm going to be a sophomore at OSU in the fall.

Freshman year went by too fast. I feel like I've been so many people in so little time. I've changed—a lot. Well, maybe I haven't. Maybe I'm just finally being myself. I guess it doesn't really matter. But I'm amazed at what one year of college did for me. Academics had nothing to do with it.

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I'm home. My first year of college didn't have the ending I wanted—or expected—but I can't say things are bad. I just got all of my grades in and it was my worst quarter yet. (Too many distractions...)

I start an accounting internship on Monday, but until then I plan on hanging out with friends that I haven't seen in months. I got home Wednesday afternoon and that's pretty much what I've been doing—staying up late doing nothing with people because there's nothing to do. But I really miss a few people from OSU and I better get to see them sometime this summer.

It's actually not that weird to be home after spending a year away at college. I just kind of went right back to my old way of life, no problem. Sure, things are different, but not really. There's still the same people here and the same things to do and the same posters on my walls.

I'm about to go running in the park system, which is one thing I thought I'd really miss when I left here for OSU. Turns out I like running at OSU so much better. There are so many more routes to take: I can run along the Olentangy or west to Upper Arlington; or I can run around campus, through the Oval, down High Street into the city—such dramatic changes in scenery for such a "small" place.

My family left for vacation this morning, but my brother and I stayed home. We have one car to share and $140 for the week—$50 of which my brother already "lost." So that's not good. But it means we have the house to ourselves for a while, so I can sing embarrassingly loud anytime I want or play music with the bass all the way up at all hours of the day. Good deal.

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It's over. I'm leaving OSU in 12 hours for the summer. I've never been so sad to leave somewhere before, to leave behind everything I've known and everyone who's become my family for all these months. Most of my belongings are packed up and stacked by my desk. All I have left are my clothes hanging in the closet and the sheets on my bed. It's going to be so weird to see this room empty again. Just four white walls and a bare tiled floor.

Finals did not go well this quarter. I didn't study enough for econ; I probably didn't do very well. Stats actually went all right—I think I still have a shot at an A in that class. Econ 505 went well, except I forgot how to pronounce "reciprocation" during my presentation. Embarrassing. And then there was anthro. I had spent all night out with friends for the last time and didn't study. At all. So, I failed. But I calculated that I only needed one point on the exam to get a C- in the class, and I can live with that if it comes to that.

It's so strange to be done and to be leaving for good. This isn't an ordinary two-week break. I'm going to be gone for three months. And when I come back, nothing will be the same. I really hope I can keep the friends I made; I want more than anything for us to just pick up where we left off. I'm not ready to say goodbye.

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My stats final starts in 30 minutes. I've been studying for the past two hours, so I'm feeling pretty good—not great, but good. I had my econ final today. Oh wow was that an experience. I definitely didn't do well—I probably failed it—but I felt so good to be done with that class. The bulk of my stress revolved around it, so now that it's gone I can kind of relax.

After stats I'm going for a nice, long run; and then I have to meet my partner for a research paper/presentation. And THEN I have to study for anthropology. I'm basically going to be up all night, and I have no idea when I'm going to pack. Tomorrow I'll be studying and taking finals till 5:30 and then probably hanging out with friends one last time; and since I'm leaving around 9 a.m. Wednesday, everything is going to have to happen pretty fast.

Okay. I need to stop blogging and find this building where my stats final is. And then I need to do well on it so I can have a good run. Less than two days...

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Finals week. Not only that, but this is it: the last finals week. I'm going home early Wednesday, and I can't believe I'm spending my last hours here studying in pure panic. And as if that wasn't enough, I'm completely broke. I just found out that I overdrafted my checking account. I can't even afford to do laundry anymore. I've never been so close to my breaking point.

I have my econ final tomorrow at 1:30. This is going to be the worst. I never go to class so I have to learn all the material tonight. I've been looking through it and these equations are completely indecipherable and unable to be memorized. I'm not really sure what I'm going to do. Then at 5:30, I have stats. I'm not planning to study for it until I finish the econ exam, which should give me two good hours of study time. I hope it's enough. At least I'm not entirely lost in stats.

On Tuesday I have a presentation in my other econ class at 1:30. I have to get that ready tomorrow—I'm meeting my partner around 8 to work it out. And then right after that I have anthropology. I won't be able to study for that until after this econ presentation is squared away, so I probably won't be able to start on it till after midnight tomorrow. And, on top of that, I have a take-home final to complete sometime.

The good news is I'm almost done. Come 5:30 on Tuesday, I'll be free. Kind of. I still have Fisher Ink obligations and all my packing to do, but I'm essentially free. I can't wait. This stress is really starting to get to me. And I don't even want to think about leaving, especially since I'll be leaving all the people I've gotten so close to this year. The car ride home at 9 a.m. Wednesday is going to be nearly unbearable.

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